Lets just take a moment here to think about this – you have been with us for 5 years now. 5!! Such a big number. Its so hard to remember life without you. Life started with you, everything before you doesn’t matter. When you came along our life was instantly made brighter. Here was this perfect little baby, given to us to love and cherish. I admit it wasn’t love at first sight. It may have been had I not been so tired and drugged up. And it was midnight, I wanted sleep. But it was for your Daddy.
I remember so vividly lying exhausted on the bed and Daddy was holding you, smiling so proudly down at you and there were tears. All I wanted was sleep. The very next morning when you woke, that was love! I looked at you and thought “how did we make something so perfect? So cute and perfect?”. We got lucky with you kid. You were the perfect baby. When others around us were struggling with all that comes with a baby, we were sailing. You ate, slept and pooped. We couldn’t have asked for anything more.
And now 5 years later, I am kissing you goodbye at the school gate because you are starting school!! The biggest and most exciting day of your life so far is here. You have been excited for weeks about big school. proudly wearing your new uniform around the house. Playing schools with your new backpack. The excitement is infectious. Your most excited about making new friends. I know you are keen to learn to read, in fact I think you are just keen to learn all the things. Your little mind is ready to be filled!
We are so excited for you buddy. But I would lie if I didn’t say I was a little nervous too. Right up until Monday I thought I wouldn’t cry. However getting your books from your teacher made me cry and now I’m not sure if I am going to be able to hold it together today. I’ll try my best though, buddy. We are so excited for you. We can’t wait. I can’t wait to see you all dressed in your uniform. To take those oh so important first day of school photo’s.
I can’t wait to pick up this afternoon and have you run into my arms. I want to hear every bit about your classroom, your teacher and most importantly, your new friends. I want to know all the details, the boring bits, the happy bits, every damn thing. I can’t wait to hear the excitement in your voice. I can’t wait to see the first things you write in your new school books, in that handwriting style that won’t stay so childlike for much longer. But most of all I can’t wait to see the smile on your face at the end of the day.
I hope you have the best day. I hope you make friends at lunch and recess. The thought of you being left alone breaks my heart. Even more so, I hope if you see a child alone you let them sit with you and play with you. I hope you are not bullied or worse, are the bully. I want you to be the sweet little boy that you are. I want you to be able to stand up for yourself when needed, I want you to have respect for others and to be kind. I want you to know that you can come to me at anytime you need to talk – about anything. There is so much I want and need to say.
But first, lets enjoy this new adventure together. The rest will come.
Love Mama x